Friday, December 01, 2006

even the rock faltered….I could use your prayer

Peter loved Jesus, and he was committed – the “rock.” But, like us, he wasn’t perfect. Jesus knew that Peter would stumble, but He also knew what Peter would be when he got back up.

We all stumble. Some times we fall pretty far.

But we can never fall too far. If we turn our eyes back toward Him, we see that His hand is reaching to pick us back up. He loves it when we realize we can’t fix things, when we acknowledge our weakness and the need for His strength. But we have to do more than just look back, we have to reach out and grab hold of the hand that was pierced for us. And we have to leave and LET GO of the muck we have fallen into.

I love that when Jesus warned Peter that he would betray Him by denying Him, He also told Peter that He has prayed for him. Jesus even reassured him that he would turn back. And minister to others.

“Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.” Luke 22:31&32

I wonder if Peter even really heard the ministry part. His mind must have been so busy trying to process the fact that Jesus thought he would turn away – not ME, Lord!

“But he replied, ‘Lord, I am ready to go with you to prison and to death.'” Luke 22:33

Peter overestimated his own faith. Peter put his faith in his own strength.

When I was a child, I loved the people of faith I heard about in Bible stories.

As I got older, I could relate to them less and less. They began to make me feel inferior. Unworthy.

But I lacked the whole picture. God didn’t give us a Bible full of perfect people whose examples we could never live up to. Along with their successes, He shared with us their weaknesses. And shows us that weaknesses yielded to Him become strengths. When we turn from our mistakes, they will be used to strengthen and encourage others.

I’m at an interesting place in my life right now. I’m not quite sure what the Lord has in mind for me since I finally managed to let go of some garbage that had been weighing me down for too long, and for the first time laid my entire life at His feet. It’s nice to feel free for the first time in my life. But I’m struggling a bit with the not knowing. And fear. I don’t feel capable of answering the call I seem to be hearing. I know the beautiful thing is the knowledge of my lack of ability is where strength will come from when I let Him do the work through me. But stepping out in faith is new to me. I could really use your prayers – for guidance, for clarity, for wisdom, for the ability to not even try to do anything in my own strength but to rely wholly on His.

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